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At first this was supposed to be a regular post on my instagram, and I did put up a post about it but there was so much more that I wanted to say. Honestly when going into this I didn't realize that it would be such a crazy experience, there were so many things I forgot about from 2017 and I got to relive all the good memories. Before I go any deeper into this let me explain exactly what my blessings jar was. At the beginning of the year I put a little slip of paper in my jar every day with a blessing from the day on it, no matter how small the blessing seemed to be. Unfortunately I stopped around June, but the memories that the little slips of paper brought tears to my eyes. I forgot how lonely, broken and insecure I was at the beginning of 2017. I relived moments with friends that meant so much to me, I found moments of accomplishment that were huge for me. Days like January 14th when I wrote "I thought for myself that I looked really good and was happy for just me" remind me of the person I was back then; so so insecure, unhappy with where I was and who I was and very very broken. And they encourage me for the future, because I'm not that person anymore, I'm so much more confident in myself, and I have a lot more days that I'm happy with myself. I never would have realized my improvement had I not seen this. Another day that struck me was February 17, "I have friends who want to spend time with me and care about me". Back then I thought no one liked me, I thought I had no friends. I remember feeling so lonely and insecure about the person I was. By the end of the year I've found amazing friends, people that I care about and that care about me. I feel like I've found such a fuller appreciation for them thinking back to how I felt at the start of 2017. There's one more thing I wanted to share before I finished this. I entered 2017 with a back injury that felt like it controlled my life. Everything I did depended on my back, this jar allowed me to remember the high points of my recovery. I wanted to share them to show you that whatever you're facing, time will heal. I remember how discouraging points of my recovery could be. But these papers reminded me how much I learned from my injury. On January 3rd I did an MRI without having a panic attack. On January 5th we found a doctor who was able to diagnose me and I found out my back would heal on its own, with time. On January 7th I did jumping jacks and squats with out my back hurting for the first time in six months. On January 14th I was able to go on the treadmill for 15 minutes for the first time in seven months with out pain. Although these only cover one month they remind me of the overwhelming satisfaction of healing after being in pain for so long. And though these accomplishments may not seem like much, they meant the world to me and brought me closer to healing step by step. All in all I'm so happy I did this blessings jar for the first few months of 2017 and I definitely plan on continuing in it 2018 (hopefully for the full year this time!) I can't wait to see the change from the start of 2018 to the end. I highly highly recommend trying this for 2018!
Happy new year and God bless!
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